Last midterm tomorrow and I have yet to start but I feel that I need to write my thoughts down hahaha they were kinda triggered because today they asked us (Aly + me, cos we're on exchange) for our jersey sizes over whatsapp.
Coming here on exchange, I feel like I've left a lot of things behind? And detached myself from a lot of things as well. Prior to this exchange, we just finished (fina-freaking-lly) our PM Cup just the week before I flew over.
While I'm here on my extended break/holiday from the last season, everyone else went back to training one week later. And I feel that coming over here, I've forgotten how tough it is for them to go back to training after only a week break, after 1 year plus of non-stop training. :'(
And because I forgot how everyone else back home is probably struggling and hurting, I feel apologetic for errr not going through what everyone else is going through, for not 一起-ing with the rest of them. Sigh.
Sometimes I feel bad that I'm enjoying myself, hardly doing much here in Korea on exchange while everyone else is struggling. Yes, I do struggle here in my classes but there is less pressure because I'm on exchange - to be honest, my biggest worry is failing. While it is a super valid worry because I seriously run the risk of failing here lol at home, there's training, there's CAP and grades :'(
Kian also said something super apt the other day. I said I spent my entire Saturday writing postcards and whatsapping, and he said that whatsapp is a very powerful tool. It's true. I'm super thankful for whatsapp and all other forms of social media because otherwise it'll be so hard to keep in touch with all the people I love back home. It's especially heart-warming, Kian mentioned this point (I'm rephrasing lol), when you receive whatsapp messages that remind you of normality back home. So true!!!! Every time dbg says things like "lunch anybody?" I'll butt in and say me HAHA well also because it's lunch time here in Korea......
Will be back soon okay, 一起, really.